Wow so I've not posted in a little while - bad me.
I just lost all desire to watch what I eat. I didn't care that I was overweight, in fact I was ENJOYING eating three meals a day and snacks inbetween. I wasn't bothered by what the scales would say so I didn't look. Not once.
Now I wish I had cared the past week or so. It's so ridiculous this bloody yo-yo dieting when I start on it it consumes me and I'm so determined but then when I quit I all out quit.
I'm turning into my mother.
Summers almost here and I look like a walruss in a vest top. This is not a good look. I guess I am back. I'm pretty sure my last post prompted the move toward a normal diet. I freaked myself out with health worries.
But I am fine, I'm not sick anymore, my body can cope I need to keep telling myself that.
So I'm back to fasting again I guess. Tge scale read an ugly 128.2 this morning and I really feel it. Neeeeeeed to be 125..... And FAST!!! I have a dress I want to fit in to in two weeks. 3 pounds in two weeks is totally acheivable so that's the plan. By any means neccessary.
I'm off to catch up on all tge blogs I've missed while I was consumed in the fatness...
Violet x
About Me
- Vi
- I'm not special or unique. I don't have anything particularly witty or interesting to say. In fact I'm painfully average. I stumbled across the online pro-ana community around a year ago, completely by chance. Since then I have silently read and followed (creepy huh?!) but have been too... Shy? Scared? To speak out. But now I want a voice.
I'm glad you're back, I missed you! I was wondering where you'd gone. I TOTALLY sympathize with your situation-I am either restricting a-go-go or don't give a fuck, and eat junk. My poor body! It gets nothing nutritious. 3lb is definitely do-able, I'm behind you all the way! Don't disappear again :) xx
ReplyDeletep.s. this is an alarmingly rapid response to your post-I'm not stalking you, you just pop up on my page because you're in my shout out list, and I happened to be on my page.
Aww you sweetie. Yeah it's nice finding someone you can relate to, hence the worry at you going off. Hope you had/have a nice time at the pub xxx
ReplyDeleteWell now you've been at the pub an awful long time...! I gave you a sunshine award. Check it out. Hope you're well. Thinking of u xx
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